Freedom...

What has 3 adults, 4 children, 2 dogs, a trailer and is packed full?

For the last 10 days I have had a personal freedom.  Oh, I still went to work and took care of my animals.  But my family has been in Texas helping my brother and his family pack up their belongings so they can move to Utah for six months. I have loved being home by myself.  I could do what I wanted, I ate what I wanted to (this usually isn't a problem.)  I got to stay home with my dogs or I went out with friends.  I went to the Sundance Film Festival, had friends over, did laundry, cooked, watched TV, fought with my internet company.

Now with just hours left until they return, I have a few things to get done.  Do I want to do these things?  No.  These are things I HAVE to do before they are home.

Damn, it was good while it lasted.


The answer to the riddle?  My family stuffed in a van, traveling from Dallas Texas to Utah.

Out Of Control Biological Clock

And damn if my hiccups haven't started along with the ambien.

Back to this ticking time bomb, it is actually called my biological clock that is ticking and I mean ticking really loud.  I am surprised you all are not hearing it!

It is bad....really bad.  So bad that I am looking in to options and considering things my Bishop and Mother would not approve of.  Would God be that mean and keep me from having children even though I have not found a decent guy with the same values and beliefs.

I have longed to be a mother since I was a little girl.  I played with babies dolls, not Barbie dolls. I took care of all the babies in the ward and my cousins.  To this day  I would do anything for my cousin's babies, my nephews and niece.

So now the question remains, HOW DO I STOP THE CLOCK???????